Synaxis TV

There was a slightly humorous but mostly sad story about people’s prayers ending up in the ocean, and it made me think about human anguish.

It’s so tough for me to think about people out there who are facing things so much bigger than themselves that all they can do is call out to this being that I don’t even believe exists. Maybe if atheists want to get rid of religion than they need to pick up the slack and take care of some of the functions it serves, like giving people hope and acting as some kind of release.

One of the hardest remaining tasks for me as an atheist is figuring out how to console those who have lost loved ones. In one of my alternative lives I am a counselor, but when I think about the things I might hear I have no idea what I could possibly say, especially since I don’t always think that things will get better and agree that sometimes things just suck.

It just makes me wish that there was something I could do. If anyone out there needs my advice or just wants to talk, please let me know. Sometimes being human sucks.

I’ve just gotten back from a noise festival in Chicago and I’ve been up forever, but my brain is still awake awake awake.

I guess I was somewhat surprised by the people at the show. In particular I was surprised that a noise show would attract as many women as it did.

It was interesting to be at the show and think about the miniscule number of friends to which this incredibly wonderful experience would mean anything at all. How did I come to enjoy such obscure things?

On the way home I had my usual “what’s going to happen to me” ponder. I looked at all of the apartments and wondered how cheap each of them were, and what exactly I need in my life to survive. Luckily, I didn’t really have the whole “dear GOD I must live in a big city” experience this time. I think part of the reason for that is my skepticism about meeting stimulating people anywhere at all in the world.